About Me

Hello! Thank you for viewing my blogs. I am a mother of two born in the early 80s. My boys were born 5/19/2006 and 5/5/2013. I was diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome Classical in August 2013 after going to a rheumatologist suspected of having an autoimmune problem both by symptoms and blood work. I left the office with an Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome diagnosis. I frequent many Facebook groups including Ehlers-Danlos support sites. I have other diagnostics which will I will list in the archives of my site. I live in the forest area of Indiana. I grew up all over the state of Indiana. My other family shows no signs of hypermobility except for my father who sat in a yoga position with both feet up in his lap. He complained of hand and wrist pains when it came to writing. I am the first and only in my family with this diagnosis. You do not have to be hypermobile to have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. You do have to be in pain.


During this journey of life with a chronic illness, I hope to pick up friends to exchange support and encouragement.


I remember the appointment very well. The office staff gave me this long word that I had to have them write on a piece of paper for me. I went home and began to research "Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome." I never expected what I found to fit me so incredibly well. I have joined many support groups. Within the support groups, I have learned that there are many more common issues that we have though they are not on the lists available to describe us. One example is that I have yet to find somebody with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome that does not see halos around lights in the night. As time goes on, I am learning exactly how debilitating this condition is. Although the pain remains the same, the stiffness and lack of ability increases.



If you need to contact me and are not a spammer, you may also write an email to my lowercase yahoo address. See combination below:




The email is my first name. amanda

The first letter of my last name. hudson

The number 14

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Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Pain Meds and Me

Pain Medication and Me

I can't decide if I like or hate the pain medication. It seems like we have a love hate relationship going on. I love that I can clean my house and do way more than normal on an average day. There is a lot to catch up on over the many days I was unable. That feeling is overwhelming but knowing I have medication for the days coming gives me hope that I can get caught up and in a decent time frame.



On the other hand, my head feels fuzzy. I feel like I have more irritability and less patience as if that wasn't a problem to begin with! It was. I don't like the idea that I have to pop a pill just to measure up to the ability of the average person. I don't like feeling like my head is fuzzy. I don't like how my body continues to drag as if I am exhausted from the pain I usually feel but am not feeling so much now.

If you are wondering if I am addicted then know that I am not. I have only been on pain meds for 10 days now. I was on them for about 10 years and it was just like this before too. I was on them with xanax too though which not only helped me with my regular anxiety problems but also reduced the increased irritability and loss of patience I am dealing with now. If you are wondering if I am dependent then know that I am. I depend on them to have the abilities of an average person. The pain I deal with everyday is lessoned to the point that I can push through and look like everyone else trying to do so. I will still have my sudden pulled muscle, subluxation, or sprain but not the chronic daily pain keeping me from enjoying life and getting stuff done.

For so many examples we can not just have our cake and eat to too. I am open to any suggestions on this. For now I will remain thankful that I have any treatment and hopeful that I can set new goals and reach them such as gaining new employment with higher pay and more hours.

It is now taking me more time to write my blogs as my semester ended and my college took back the Dragon Naturally Speaking software so I no longer have talk to text. They even do a remote uninstall to make sure it is returned, It will cost me $99 to buy my own personal copy of the software.

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