Pain Medication and MeI can't decide if I like or hate the pain medication. It seems like we have a love hate relationship going on. I love that I can clean my house and do way more than normal on an average day. There is a lot to catch up on over the many days I was unable. That feeling is overwhelming but knowing I have medication for the days coming gives me hope that I can get caught up and in a decent time frame.
If you are wondering if I am addicted then know that I am not. I have only been on pain meds for 10 days now. I was on them for about 10 years and it was just like this before too. I was on them with xanax too though which not only helped me with my regular anxiety problems but also reduced the increased irritability and loss of patience I am dealing with now. If you are wondering if I am dependent then know that I am. I depend on them to have the abilities of an average person. The pain I deal with everyday is lessoned to the point that I can push through and look like everyone else trying to do so. I will still have my sudden pulled muscle, subluxation, or sprain but not the chronic daily pain keeping me from enjoying life and getting stuff done.
For so many examples we can not just have our cake and eat to too. I am open to any suggestions on this. For now I will remain thankful that I have any treatment and hopeful that I can set new goals and reach them such as gaining new employment with higher pay and more hours.
It is now taking me more time to write my blogs as my semester ended and my college took back the Dragon Naturally Speaking software so I no longer have talk to text. They even do a remote uninstall to make sure it is returned, It will cost me $99 to buy my own personal copy of the software.
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